Monday, May 24, 2010
PTC finally over, I have not yet get back...wanna slack a little..=p
It's tiring than last year, why? I dunno too, maybe taking 2 classes of older age group is more stressful than taking younger age group, and it's not easy to manage with the expectations of different parents...
I wanna go on a holiday, anywhere, to relax and cool down all the stressfulness and fatigue...
sometimes in my own dreamland, I just wish the dreams can become reality, but I know it's impossible =)
I've seemed to be away from the "society" for quite sometime, always meeting the same people, doing the same things, sometimes I do wonder if this is the kind of life I want. My social circle is so small that I wonder, is it me or some other factors...most of the time I think it's my character...am I willing to be more open up, to trust other people , to take more initiative, to be more confident and have more courage.....well I dunno.
I started to have other plans in coming, but when these plans can be fulfill I dunno, circumstances keep on changing.
Deep down, there are some kind of loneliness..tats why I have to keep myself busy with things, jobs, fantasy..if not, I will really feel depressing when this loneliness crept up in me, and I don't really like it, somehow it makes me feel really weak. Though it seems like I have many friends out there, but not really that many that can become soulmates. Hence, I usually dun take leave from work unless needed, but sometimes I just wish I could to rest, but it's me who is contradicting.
I just feel or wish...for an escape...
With Y, 9:30 PM
